Bruno Growing Old

 

Growing old is one of the many things you can’t explain to others, you just have to experience it, if you’re lucky enough to actually experience it that is. Your mind doesn’t seem to age as much as your body does. The older I get, the more I recognize aging in everything, but especially in our pets. It’s hard watching our parents age, but in most cases we can talk with them, understand how they are coping or not, and at least try to help them mentally. With our pets, I just see an innocent life long friend, at least for their life usually, who doesn’t understand why he or she can’t jump on the couch, run through the yard, or simply walk a straight line anymore. They look to you for their everything; food, water, loving, attention and in many cases their survival, but you really can’t help them understand aging.

Bruno came into our lives many years ago through our son. He spent a year or so living with us while our son was in college, so I had time to really bond with him, and we became friends. It was actually difficult letting him go back to live with our son back then because we had become so close. As we recently visited Bruno, and our son, daughter-in-law, and grand daughter, I watched sadly as Bruno slowed down from his rambunctious young years of playing tug of war with me and inflecting some scars I still carry today from our rough housing. He was a very loving guy, but was also quite a rough play friend.

Recently, we dog sat Bruno and Pivot while our kids were taking a short trip, and it broke my heart seeing the fearless, rough housing Bruno unable to jump and have fun like he used to. Watching him struggle to simply get up on a low chair, walking with much difficulty, and just struggling to get up and move was hard. It was hard on me watching, and I know it was hard on him physically. I would imagine it is hard on him mentally as well. Surely he still had memories of younger days just like we do, when he could rule the house, rip the toy from my hand, and get around with ease.

I’m glad I was able to spend time with Bruno those last few days he was here. I helped him into my chair when he worked so hard to walk over to me during that visit and wanted up. He laid on me and looked up at me just like we did many times before. He and I took time laying around outside just soaking in the times together and I know at least I was reminiscing about our old times. Maybe he was too, I’ll never know for sure. Seeing him was hard, but knowing the inevitable was harder I guess. Even with that, hearing the news that Bruno passed on November 19^th, 2024 still hurt my heart. Even more so knowing our son, daughter in law, and grand daughter had lost part of their family that day. I lost an old friend myself. Rest easy Bruno, rest easy.

 

Remembering Ginger

January 8^th, 2024

From the first time I saw your picture shared at the rescue, I told Karen we have to get this dog. I can’t say why I felt like that, it just struck my heart. We made the contacts and it wasn’t too long before you were in our home doing zoomies when you ran into our living room and into our hearts on that February 2012 day.

You were always the sweetie, but also the sneaky one, stealing toys from your brother Li. We were able to enjoy nearly twelve years with you, snuggling with you, loving you, and watching you run, play and be the active one.

Always the picky eater, you drove your brother crazy long after he had scarfed down his own food and thinking he should get yours too. You shared your love with us, but also scared us when you’d run out of the house when the front door was opened even slightly. When you disappeared from my mother’s yard one Thanksgiving day, we grieved and searched frantically until mom’s neighbor came carrying you up to us having found you in their garage.

Life is short and it was hard to watch you begin to age with kidney problems and slow down from your usual fast pace. However, each day was enjoyed and appreciated as you snuggled up in our bed at night. Once the picky eating turned into no appetite, we knew in our heads your time was near, but it still doesn’t stop the heart from hurting.

Karen snuggled you in her chair during your last days, and I carried you around our land trying to let you see the outside world you used to enjoy when you could run away  mocking us slow humans trying to catch up with you.

You enlightened our lives, kept your brother busy, and gave us unquestioned love. 

We hope you enjoyed your time with us, as much as we enjoyed it with you. We will miss you, girl.

Lessons of Appreciation

It’s interesting how we tend to take things for granted in our lives. We don’t notice it until it’s gone, which is quite a shame. From relationships, to housing, jobs and careers, friendships, and family, we really do not often consider what we have until it’s gone.

When a storm recently knocked the electricity out at our house, I couldn’t count the times I automatically turned on a light switch thinking the light would come on like it always has. Luckily we have a generator that can power key portions of our house, but it’s still odd how I flick those switches in the areas that don’t have power.

One of the most common situations we take for granted is our health. When we are healthy, we don’t even consider being unhealthy. I know personally, I never had second thoughts about walking and getting around until my hips began to fail. Even today, as I recover from my second hip replacement, I watch people get up and simply walk, and immediately understand how lucky they actually are.

As I continue to improve, I hope I can remember what it was like not being able to easily walk without a cane or walker and hold that privilege closer in the future. Look around, you likely have many things are well that you won’t appreciate until they are gone. Appreciate them today, just in case.

Let the New Year Begin – Welcome 2022

Well it’s over – 2021 is past history. Good, bad, ugly, or wonderful, those times are gone and we start our new adventures now. Personally 2021 wasn’t a bad year. I did try to “enjoy every day” and tried to fill my time with as many things I like doing as possible. I was slowed down greatly by advancing osteoarthritis in the process, but kept on keeping on as best as possible. The last two weeks were the toughest with my hip replacement and starting that recovery, but again I feel I was lucky and just took each day as it came, easy or hard.

Twenty twenty one did present some insane changes around the globe. Especially scary trends towards dystopian societies with obvious government over reach forcing people to make decisions of liberty versus livelihood. Decisions people should never have to make, especially in a “free” country such as the United States. Will we recover from this in twenty twenty two, or is this the trend that is now accepted by society as the new normal? We can only hope and pray freedom and liberty wins in the end.

I continue to feel very fortunate that I have the benefit of being retired and not in the mess of choosing liberty over livelihood. I also feel lucky I live in an area that isn’t quite as insanely bent on controlling the people like many areas around our nation an world. But things can change quickly, so I plan to continue to be prepared for the worst, while planning for the best for 2022.

My goals for 2022 are pretty simple; Enjoy Every Day doing the things that I like doing as much as possible. There is likely another hip replacement in my future, but I will deal with that when I’m ready to hopefully. I love my hobbies, or interest and am thankful and happy I have the ability to work and enjoy them. My newest hobby will be learning the ropes of my little CNC router and finding uses for it, but the cars, motorcycles, 3D printers, home automation, solar power, gardening, writing, robots, electronics, bicycles, RC cars, and more will hopefully all be in the mix as well.

Welcome 2022 – Let’s get rolling and pray for the best possible outcome!

Divide and Conquer

Divide and Conquer... 

Divide by RACE, pitch the blacks against the whites, the natives against the non natives, the east against the west.

Divide by AGE, pitch the young against the old, the boomers vs the hipsters, the babies against the abortionist.

Divide by ECONOMICS, pitch the rich against the poor, the entitled against the workers, the middle class against the rest.

Divide by POLITICS, pitch the left against the right, the capitalist against the socialist, the anarchist against the communistic.

Divide by HEALTH, pitch the frail against the healthy, the fear mongers against the conspirators, the logical against the emotional, use the pandemic to it’s full fear factor.

Divide by MASKING, shame people who do, shame people who do not. Make it required by law even though loads of evidence state otherwise.

Divide by RELIGION, Christians are the current targets. Shame them for their beliefs, force them to “bake the cake”.

Divide by Vaccines, make the un-vaccinated second class citizens, shame them for their “selfishness”, generate fake hate between the sides.

Divide by GEOGRAPHY, big dirty urban vs hillbilly rural, make them hate each other for all their various differences, instead of common beliefs.

Divide by FEAR, keep the public afraid of anything and everything. A citizenship shaking in fear mongering of all types is less likely to come together and fight the true threat.

Divide by the PAST, stir up the hate, make it personal, offer rewards for the past transgressions than none of the living experienced to keep the hate alive.

The can be NO balance, races must hate each other although they rarely do. Ages cannot work together, although they have for eons, the rich can’t help the poor and the poor can’t help themselves, although one can rise above being poor and the rich do share their wealth. The left hates the right and the right hates the left, there is no compromise, although the best times have been achieved through balance and compromise.

Make sure the healthy are shamed for not protecting themselves, or protecting everything else by their personal actions, even though true science proves neither. You’re an idiot if you don’t mask, but only idiots wear masks, but a personal choice makes the most sense. You must be vaccinated, but the cure has caused more damage than all past cures combined. 

The city sucks with the most homeless and crime, but those rural rednecks are a threat to the nation, but the nation is great because we have had both to support each other. Make sure and drag up the past as something evil and dangerous to the present. Erase the history to protect the future, although the history will be repeated without the knowledge of the past.

But most important of all is divide by FEAR, fear of national security, fear of health, fear of the future, fear of the past, fear of the government, fear of your neighbor. You must continue to be afraid, very afraid, and the government will come to your rescue. However, that “rescue” will be complete control of your life, your travel, your money, and eventually your mind.

Divide and Conquer, Divided We Fall. 

What will it take to become “United We Stand” again?

Land of Equal - Opportunity, Not Life

It seems that too many Americans have forgotten what this country was built on in my opinion. The entitlement mindset is quickly taking over our nation, and apparently our world as individuals believe they are "owed" something in life. One would think this would be unique to to the U.S. but it is quickly becoming a world wild downward slid.

That mindset quickly leads to a lazy ass world where people think someone ELSE is supposed to take care of their needs and generally that someone else appears to be the "government". This country was founded on hard work, individualism, and persistence and without that mindset I think we will quickly fall into yet another "3rd world" country that can't support themselves much less others.

This is indicative not just economically but in many other areas as well. We want a pill to fix all our health issues instead of taking on the responsibility of our own health. It's someone else's fault that we are mad, or sad, or hurt, or even happy anymore. It's someone else's fault I can't get a job, not that I have no skills or a degree that is useless in a productive world. It's the policeman's fault I'm in trouble because he caught me, not like I was doing illegal things. It's the judges fault I'm in prison. It's the legal gun owners or NRA's fault some idiot killed someone. The list goes on.

I hear these things daily and it's full blown entitlement and lack of self responsibility. It's also the easy way out, which is why it's likely so popular as we have fallen from a nation of self support, self confidence, and self building to it's someone else's job to do it.

No easy fix in sight either which is the worse part of the situation. My two and 1/2 cents...

Don't Be Stupid

In today's world it seems every time there is some problem, some concern, something different that people don't like some lawmaker somewhere comes up with a new law to address it. We are a country of millions of laws... literally. Nobody knows them all and I'd imagine we all be surprised at how few are enforced.

With all these laws in place and all the law makers trying to keep us all "legal", it seems to me nearly all of these could be fixed with one single law...

"Don't be stupid"

That seems to sum up all that is needed to function as a society. Think about how that can be applied across the board.

Don't be stupid and kill people.
Don't be stupid and steal stuff.
Don't be stupid and cheat.
Don't be stupid and hurt anyone.
Don't be stupid.

Just Don't be stupid- fixes a lot of the worlds problems.

Not like that's going to happen but seems to be a solution.

It's The Process That Counts

I've now spent about 60 years on this big round ball (yeah, I'm not giving into the flat earth stuff yet) and have completed a few things during that time. With "things" being jobs, projects, goals, challenges and more. I've built things, broke things, fixed things, rebuilt things, re-broke things, explored new things, enjoyed old things, and tried new things. These things range from bicycles, Lego animation, go karts, old cars, motorcycles, automated homes, big and small computer networks, dynamic websites, patios, carports, computers, robots, 3D printers, relationships, policies, processes, and beyond.

I've found for my purpose, it's not the end result thing that counts, it's the process of getting there. Figuring out the process, finding the right design, making the new part, making it all work out, getting the right algorithm, assembling the code or finished up parts, or working through the wording on that new policy, is the part I actually enjoy, usually more than using the finished "thing". It's not that I don't want or enjoy the end result, be it a paper, car, bot, process, computer or whatever, it's just that getting there was as much or more fun than the results often to me.

I guess that's a good thing since, as in life, getting to the end isn't the real goal. I'm glad I never felt I was only "working for retirement". I worked for 45 years from car hop, cashier/sacker to outside plant engineer and on to Chief Information Officer, but enjoyed each of those stops along the way and what was involved in making each job work the best it could. I remember working on Long Range Outside Plant Plans (LROPPs) for many Bell wire centers and, although I was happy to be finished with each, the end product didn't have as much meaning to me as the working through the process.

Interestingly enough, in the Information Systems career that followed, the end result of your work had a very short "shelf life" so the job required constant "processing" to keep it updated and relevant. Maybe that is why I liked it as much as I did. The same feeling is there for cars, bikes, robots, and more. The end result is cool and fun, but the process was the most fun.

I'm glad I enjoyed the process of life so far, and hope to enjoy the process of retirement for some time to come. In reality, life is just a series of "now" moments strung through seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, and decades, so life's plan really should be "enjoy each day" ... and the "process" of that day you have been given.

-Stephen W Nolen

Saying Goodbye to the City

When I walked through the City of Shawnee Oklahoma City Hall doors on January 10th, 2000, and sat waiting for then Finance Director Jim Wilsie to welcome me to the City of Shawnee as a new employee, I really didn’t have a clue of what the future really looked like here. I had actually always wanted to work at the City of Shawnee, having spent seven years at the City of Tecumseh, and three at the Citizen Potawatomi Nation building technology solutions and supporting their goals. When I received a phone call from James Roberts about Shawnee exploring a possible “Systems Administrator” position, and what it should pay and how it should look, it peaked my interest.

Little did I know I’d spent nearly 19 years here, and at least try to keep us moving along the never ending technology treadmill. We did make progress, deploying working solutions, and continued to improve our operations. We were ahead of some cities, and behind others in our technology ventures. It all depended on time, money, and motivation during that time. 

Sadly to me we’ve watched the core function of information systems department move from being change and efficiency drivers, to “defenders of the fort” simply trying to keep the bad guy from burning down what we have built. I truly believe that has slowed down progress in our department as much effort has had to be made on building security systems, training users, and deeply monitoring systems to identify and stop any threats. I hope that gets better before it gets worse, but the online world really is a nasty place anymore.

As I walk away from the City of Shawnee I see big changes on the horizon, and that’s a good thing. It’s time to explore new options, solutions, and processes and actually deploy some of the true cost saving solutions that have been “in the list” for way too long. Here’s wishing good luck to everyone that will making the future with the City!

Chapters...

Life really is like chapters of a book when you look back. The introduction to the story of your life, the rising action and build up to exciting times, the climax where you've done the best you can and are enjoying every day, the falling action or wind down when you finish out your career or see your children go off to their own, and finally, the resolution or closing, where hopefully you are happy with it all.

We all experience some of these during slightly different ages, I suppose, but I'm sure all of us who are older can identify with the basic concept. Unfortunately, many do not get to enjoy the full book of life, when things end early or abruptly, so those who get to enjoy the book of life all the way through, are indeed quite lucky.

Our Introduction

During our youth, we are establishing our character, building our ethics and morals, and deciding where we are headed. As toddlers learning right from wrong to teens testing the limits of parents and society, we mold ourselves into the human we will likely be from now on. Our parents, grandparents, friends and enemies, all play roles in these early days and make us the unique individuals we turn out to be.

Our Rising Action

During our late teens and twenties, we may be learning the skills of life, building our careers, work and life experiences or having our own children to mentor and enjoy. Often our children help drive our motivation to do good in the world, to do the best we can and to be the person they would be proud of. We are learning, living and loving life and beginning to realize how special it is.

Our Climax

At some point we may feel like we've done our good for the world, be it our children, work, volunteerism or other life accomplishments. We should be happy with our accomplishments and look back at our life, so far, with pride. We aren't all so lucky to feel or see that, but I believe that should be our goal. For some this may be our 40's, other 50's, or even older, depending on the individual.

Our Falling Action

Our falling action years would hopefully be our golden years of retirement, resting, thoughts of our past with good memories and taking time for ourselves to enjoy the world, without the need for work or daily actions, unless that is what we really enjoy doing.

Our Resolution

In the end we finish out, hopefully knowing we did do the best we could, that we stopped and smelled the roses along the way, that we presented the best example we could as a human being, and that we enjoyed each day to our best ability. Those late years in life are very special and hopefully we have no regrets during this time.

We all should step back and make sure we are writing our book of life the way we hope it will be.

References:
https://literarydevices.net/plot/